i don't know what to do anymore
honestly.

this is it.

I don't know what to do anymore.

with this project.

with everything.


I am so so so so... inexpressably crazy.







i don't know what to do.

Ali was appointed president of walk for aidan for 2009, greatly limiting his freetime and he will not be able to help on set, atleast not much.



SHIT SHIT SHIT.


I could sense it since the beginning of this month. this film would be in a very fragile state.


We lost our lead actor. We lost Lara Kaminoff, as Anthurium. And with every passing day, Dmitri is ebbing away.

I don;t know what to do anymore. I seriously don't know what to do.





I guess i screwed myself over, big time.





I guess this means I tried for seven months with all of my heart, and I failed.

Is there a way to climb out of this pit?

Is there still a way to find new people?

Is there any way at all?

I have never felt so hopeless in such an unbelievably long time?

Is this what it feels like to give up?


Does this mean it's over?

I can't even speak.